writing on the black screen

We can call it coincidence if you need to be a person of logic and reason. But I realize I’ve been putting an attitude out into the universe about how little I value the possession of things. So, of course, the universe turns around and says oh yeah? What if it cripples a thing I use every day, into which I have poured time, emotion, and several sleepless hours? What if a piece of gadgetry that provides music, communication, entertainment, and storage of memories each day suddenly does not work? 

 Classic story. One minute I was clicking a link to a recipe… the next a virus warning sprouted. And then in a matter of confused minutes, everything was wiped from my screen. I resisted despair last night. Everything… most everything can be fixed… for a price. I don’t worry about that… yet.

In fact, I’d already had it in the corner of my brain that I’d like a new computer. I started a writing business this year. A computer is my primary tool. And whilst I had no real problem with my little laptop, I have been thinking about acquiring some additional tools that will help me with marketing and being a better business manager of my writing. I just… didn’t want to do that now.

No. I just don’t want to spend the money now.

But… that’s business, right? You have to spend money to make money. Only I had a portion of my life when I spent money just to spend money. So I don’t like to jump into these choices half-assed. Uninformed. Under pressure.

Guess the universe has other plans.

Or …it’s saying get serious about this business, Jessie. That, and I don't need any more recipes for chocolate cupcakes.